My first time posting here.. A year ago I would have never guessed that this is where I would end up. Life is unpredictable..
We have been married for 12 years, married very young (18 and 22) and recently my DH has brought up that he lacks variety and would love to just have some fun on the side. We are very much n love, sex is great and is very frequent - every night, pretty much. And I am an extremely possessive woman, attractive, with big sex drive and jealous... It has been very very hard for me to do this for him, but I have agreed to try it.
Does anyone have any pointers as to HOW to get over this jealousy?? How can I come to peace with it?? I know he loves me and I am secure in that. Plus, I can go fuck other guys too. Which I did not have a desire to do, because I am also very loyal. So really, I am trying it for his sake. HOW can I come out of it sane? Not freak out? Anyone went though this? I love him so much that I am going against my own self here. It is not hard for me to go have sex with another guy, because I think of husband anyway, and how I enjoy sex with him more, but I worry a lot that for him it may be different... He is still in the process of finding a lay (you know how it is so much easier for us girls to get laid, and tougher for the men). I am worried he will compare, or like someone more... Is variety sex a threat, if it is rare and truly FB sex?? Is it a threat in a sense that he may like it more than our sex? Our sex is hot, but after reading about men getting their variety fix I am worried.
I put some of my deeper thoughts down on my blog, if anyone is so inclined to read it https://theopenwife.wordpress.com/