Hey cactus, thanks for the props and the insight!
I'll try to do more convos like you suggest, but it's interesting you bring up her disappointment because I suspect I do that a LOT to girls. I also wonder how I can "be my own man" if I have to constantly walk on eggshells in that manner. :/
For now, I think I should be focusing on having what Circulator termed "fruitful conversations".
Relating and stuff.
If I learned one thing from this it's that girls are interested in me but I'm the one who turns them off. It's like being in a minefield. And it's honestly quite limiting and frustrating. I feel repressed.
Asian girl was studying me hard with her eyes and I could tell she was weighing me out which is good I guess.
Anyhow, thanks again.