Not sure what my intent is with this post. Feel like I'm beating a dead horse but let me know y'all thoughts.
Thinking back on my recent adventures, some type of thought process triggered. I delved deeper into how it was that I personally connected with girls. I remember growing up being surrounded by my mother and other females most of my life. You may be asking "where was the father?" He was there but not in the sense of teaching me such things like getting with girls but I did learn good values from both my parents. Anyway, the one thing I never understood in my virgin teen years was why couldn't I get laid? Plenty of guys I knew at parties or outside would pick up girls and make it look easy. I now believe it was because I didn't have enough masculine energy and that I possessed more feminine energy. Masculine being more outgoing,dominating,not afraid of rejection, big presence, etc. I didn't have these things at the time. No, I was the quiet guy who thought more about how the world ticked. I was reserved, self conscious, cared more about making other people happy than myself.
Now, from my experience I was always able to connect with females using feminine energy but I never understood how to transition to sexual energy. Girls would open up and talk to me all day because I was more a listener than a talker and somehow some of them were attracted to me but one move from me and poof! they were gone. I didn't know how to flirt or be c/f or how to escalate..anything! The only thing I did sort of have was intuition, being able to 'feel out' girls signals, which I guess was picked up from my time spent around females. The missing piece to me getting laid was masculine/sexual energy which I didn't discover until I was about 23 here on these forums. It was like a whole new world opened up before my very eyes! At the time I didn't understand most of what PU was but I read so much material and decided to test it out. My 19yo gf at the time who I met thru work was the first I've shared everything with except penetration but that time wasn't what solidified PU worked for me. I wrote a report on here with a girl I managed to have sex with for the first time using the techs I read. It wasn't smooth but it was at that moment it clicked..all I had to learn to do was be sexual and not be ashamed about what I wanted. I'm still learning but now I can have sex with a girl. My next step in my journey is figuring out how to get it consistently,not just month here and there.
I guess thru all this rambling the points that I'm trying to make are:
-Balance masculine/feminine/sexual energy (If you're lacking in one improve that area)
-Don't be ashamed for wanting sex